MAgical mySTERy tour...

I just made a rather momentous leap and figured that in some ways my blog is very similar to the big brother diary room. I use it a lot to escape and vent. A lot of people don't understand why I blog, but it's become part of my life. Even though at any point I feel like I could leave blog behind if I need to, I don't want to be without my blog.

All the comments I have received from the last two posts make me feel stronger and make me realise that blog is every encouragement that I don't receive at work or at home. My life seems empty right now, it's so sad because my only enjoyment comes from being at work, being on blog or getting pissed.

What sort of a life is that?

7.9 on the life version of the richter scale (SEE HERE)? Nah, damn lies and statistics!

All as I know is that you people on blog - you make me feel better! Thank you!!

My mum hasn't got out of bed for more than 10 mins at a time for about three days now and it's seriously getting on my nerves. She says she is sick all the time and I just said to her - "Of course you are sick you aren't eating! You need to set your alarm and eat", to which she replied...

"Well I don't feel like eating because I am ill"

So I just shouted at her. I said "Look you're so stupid, if you EAT you will feel better, especially if three hours later you eat again! This is all because you don't eat for about three days!!!!!!!"

And so I made her something to eat and then took it upstairs and she was crying up there. And I have no fecking food in because I was a lazy cunt and didn't buy any!!! And now my dad can't eat because there is nothing left for us. This is seriously fucking me off!!! Feck here I go again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am completely fucked off with this shitty life I live!! I need to get out of here - some fucking people need to help them fucking selves and get off there arse and FIX THIS SHIT!!!!!