As I walked past the children playing in the sun outside the nursery, I smiled as I noticed a cheeky little lad handing a plant pot with a little plant in it to a girl who was there. The teacher raised her voice slightly and said "Kevin, Kevin put that plant back!", and it made me smile even more so. It was like looking back at me without it being a lucid dream! Plants, girls, presents - gosh I haven't changed a bit! So now I see what he will turn out like ;)

So whilst I was commissioning a server at the school I realised that all this stress I have been feeling has left me as quick as it had arrived. And the reason why it arrived - because I am broody!

I know, gosh I shouldn't be admitting these things but I really want to settle down and have a family of my own. I want to wake up and kiss my wife first thing in the morning (and enjoy sharing our morning breath), I want to walk my son or daughter (or both) to school of a morning before starting my cushy job as a Management Information Systems Consultant and I want to know that I have my family to come home from work to.

I wrote a blog just recently saying how much I am starting to see special things in people and I am ready. Well I didn't really click at the time but I really am ready.

And what caused my stress was the fact that I was rushing towards my 31st birthday on Monday with great trepidation! I am 31 and my one, my soul-mate still hasn't come to me! I have lived so much and lost a lot, mostly by choice. It seems that I overcomplicate every part of my life - and it makes me just walk away. What if I have missed out?

But I suddenly see that life isn't over for me yet - I have a lot of great things to offer. I just distracted myself for a moment with dreams of a fairytale with a girl whom I used to know. But she has gone now - moved on because I didn't move on with her. And so maybe it is time I didn't wait for my one to appear. Maybe I should have some more adventure. And maybe someone else who is ready will see that I am ready. And we will click and it will happen.

But even if it doesn't for a while, I think I shall enjoy myself non-the-less! Roll on!...