Would I really want my kids to see this sort of thing? I mean God knows what sort of serial killer they'd turn out like. (Or am I just old and prudish now?)

It's been in the news a lot today about YouTube setting up an external regulatory body. Not sure how they would do it, but I am guessing that the only thing a parental control program could do is blacklist the whole of YouTube even though some schools actually upload educational videos to it. It's a catch 22 situation!

Full story is HERE

I've had blog for a pretty long time now and I've never actually done this before! Yes strangely enough i'm writing a blog whilst naked in bed using opera mini which i just downloaded on my phone. Guess this could be either amazing or pants. I'll see tomorrow ;-) Night night all...

So I went to the gym tonight again and I decided to step on the scales. I don't know why but my heart was beating so fast, I thought it was gonna shoot up to over 12 stone like I used to be. But actually, I am 11.5 stone / 73kg's. Now I think this is definite proof there is something wrong with my mind, I haven't put on a single ounce in over three months yet I keep thinking I am fat and getting fatter and fatter. What is wrong with me here??? I just don't get it. Maybe it's the feeling of being a little less "tight" around the waist area that gives me the illusion that I am fat? I can't explain it really. Yet no matter how fat I feel, I still can't walk past chocolate! Doh!

But who cares, I'm not fat! Woohoo *celebrates*

Still, it's nice to feel good after the gym again, I got over my phobia and I am happy!! For those who don't know, I somehow associated the gym with my illness which gave me trouble with anxiety and nerves - when in fact it was the horror of becoming 31 and still living here with parents that was causing the anxiety. That and I thought I had a broken heart.

If I manage to get the motivation to go again tomorrow, I will know I am over the hurdle Yes I am happy... very!

So this post has been sitting here empty for the past thirty minutes. The reason - because I am not actually awake. Yesterday was so crazy, I drank copious amounts of alcohol and I am seriously regretting it today. Although, as hangovers go, this one is a good one to have. No feeling sick, no upset tummy, no headache, the trouble is I can hardly move my body. My legs ache, I can't keep my eyes open, I have a big bruise on my arse caused by God knows what and I cant even lift my arms above my head! It's pure madness - but thinking about it, maybe it was worth it.

So today I woke up feeling rather strange, like I didn't know what to do with myself (ahem, not that). I mean I go to Kiev on August 21st but in between I am not sure what's meant to happen or what I am to do about my life. Do I just sit here and wait for it to evolve or do I force something to happen? I am not sure really what I am meant to do here.

Do I look for a new job? Do I look for a wife? Have I found one already?

All these questions run through my mind, but ya know what, sitting here just makes me think I will be still stuck like this by the time I am 40. Most people have had kids and are almost due to have grand kids at this time. Most people own a house by now. It's all taking just too long for me. Such a slow process, but I don't have a clue how to speed it up. In fact I know I can't speed up the economy so I have to wait for house prices to bottom out before I can even think of buying one! Crazy.

So these are my ponderous thoughts today.

But that doesn't mean I am depressed!! Nooo, in fact I am really rather happy today.

Oh and if you are incredibly bored, try this game its relaxing

I used to be....

And who I am now...

Of course in certain situations I flick from one to the other, but I could very easily waffle on the phone all day to certain people. Or give me one Guinness and I could waffle for hours about anything and everything. Crazy how I hardly ever said a thing in school!!

Anyways today I am taking a trip to sunny Manchester, via Bolton! We will be going to watch Batman and then going for a meal in Printworks, followed by a night of drinking and partying! And then we will head back to Bolton, where upon my friends will smoke weed and I will probably sit off drinking whisky (yes I am a good boy these days - well, good as far as avoiding drugs are concerned!). Actually last time we went out my friend projectile vomited in the hallway, and it almost made me do the same thing!!! I hate that noise, it instantly makes me feel rough as beans. But to be honest, touch wood, I have hardly ever been sick from drinking alcohol. So let's not start tonight hey!!

I just realised, aint sun great

So.... someone just kindly pointed out that even though sometimes I am Mr Quiet or Mr Chatterbox, I will always be
and no matter what mood I am in

Tonight I will be staying home! Partying in Liverpool has been cancelled, and so I have had to change my plans rather a lot! And here's me looking forward to a lot of beer too!

Feck it, ya know what I am going the gym Let's see how that goes!!

So who's having a quiet night in with me then whence I return??

Oh god *butts the table* why oh why does it say I have 2 comments on the blog titled something like "Summer is too long" when actually I have 3??

I am fed up of computer problems today

Reminds me of Canada - definitely a grower

Shame it was only the food! However I did drink this wine....

A 3 star Pinot Grigio really isn't good considering it's my favourite kind of white wine. It should have been 2 1/2 stars (5 out of 10) but I gave it an extra half star because I opened it the other night and I guess that does affect the flavour (since I was rather pissed drinking it last time, I didn't want to write a pissed up review).

It was £4.50 from Bargain Booze and It just doesn't feel worth it. It's not got enough twang that the usual quality Pinot Grigio has, in fact it tastes rather like a Chardonnay does. More bland and rather tedious. Nice and refreshing after a long annoying day at work though non-the-less. I wont be buying it again!

So I decided to create my new dream team - ya never know I might be £250,000 richer for my birthday next May!

They aren't bad players - what do ya think?

You know the rest!!!!

My tags don't work!!!! Where do I post this post, I am sure I saw a "bugs" section once????

Help!

Hope you have a rather wonderful day!!!!

As for me, I am off to a techy conference - joy!!!

Then again this is were they tell me all the reasons why they will need me in my job for another 10 years!! Aint technological progress great

Ta ra for now...

So I decided to change my blog a little and came across some funky tabs!!! I am impressed, you can find my wine rating system in just one click! And you can also find all the music I have linked to throughout the ages too!

So it also got me thinking about what other tabs I can put along there? Feck knows, but hey it's good so far, what do ya think?

I almost had a complete food binge the other day when I thought about a certain month when a picture popped into my inbox. A picture so horrifying that it triggered me to go to the gym and become fit and healthy and well, less fat! And I have been wondering whether to post my pic on here for the world to see (since it was pre-blog meet days). I think those who has met me will think "OMG", and those who haven't will think "Oh God so THAT's what he really looks like!". Well not so true, I don't have a giant beer belly any more and to be honest I am posting this pic because I am rather proud of what I achieved! I did it the healthy way! Non of this anorexia malarkey. I went the gym and I kicked some arse (my own fat one!).

So here... this is the before pic that motivates me so much: -

I was thinking of doing an after pic but it would mean me being topless!! Something that I am not quite ready to do on here. Well maybe but I am not that much of a narcissist!! Honest!!!

Don't expect it to be the greatest review in the world, this is merely for my own benefit at a later date!

So the first two bottles I tried last night were:-

Lindemans Shiraz Cabernet - Vintage 2007

This was £3.99 from Bargain Booze and it is a nice fruity red wine. It is full-bodied and very rich yet it didn't make my lips red like a lot of red wines tend to do. It has a bitter fruity taste, but not too bitter that it gets sickly after a while. To be honest, I could have drank it all night, but it only gets 7 out of 10 because my taste buds didn't quite jump out and say wow. The cheap price did boost the score up a little. I would recommend!

So I have just spent the last hour designing a star system for my wine testing exploits and I came up with this: -

It's a 5 full and 5 half star rating system, so wine can be rated between 1 and 10. So 3 1/2 stars as shown above means the wine gets 7 out of 10! God does this make any sense? Well it does to me lol. So I am just going out for a meal, later tonight I shall rate the wine I drank last night!

Any more changes I need to make do you think???

So I was standing in Bargain Booze trying to pick some wine for a nice quiet night in when a fella came up behind me and reached around me selecting Lindemans Shiraz Cabernet from the shelf above. "This is the one for you!", he said rather forcefully.

"I am looking for an offer because I need some white wine too!", I replied to which he just nodded and walked to the till.

So ten minutes past and I stood there thinking "God I have tried most of these, but what did they taste like and did I like them?".

Well, to be honest I haven't got a clue - I should have written them down.

*DING* - a light came on in my head (it had bells in it), why don't I write various blogs and tag them WINE RATING so that I can check what I fancy before I actually go to the shops. In fact why don't I create a whole blog just for my alcohol rating system?

So I am currently pondering what to do, create a new blog or write my pissed up reviews in this one?

You decide!!!

p.s. I bought the Lindemans and two bottles of Yellow Tail white.

Sometimes when work is getting a bit tedious I sit there and imagine things I can blog. Not just topics and subjects, I actually sit there thinking exactly word for word what I will write. And if it doesn't sound right I delete it and rewrite the sentence in my head.

And then by the time I get home it's gone and I can only remember parts of what I was going to write here!

This to me is very sad and makes me wish I had a job where I could log onto blog without fear of them finding me! But I have discovered the joys of MSN Web Messenger and ICQ2GO so I suppose that is something. But there is something about chatting that isn't the same as blogging. Obviously there are one or two people who stand out and I love chatting with at any time, but other times, especially on ICQ I can spend time going through offline messages from people in far off countries writing me messages that aren't even in English! Of course that's where the handy block feature comes in!

So I guess someone might suggest that I use a pen or paper or write my blog in the form of am email to myself. And you know what, why the hell didn't I think of that till now?

Weird!

It's not great, my eye is still not happy with me now, three hours later! So anyways, I have decided to book a trip to Kiev. No I haven't just decided it, I have actually done it! Crazy I know but it should be good. According to THIS anyways.

So I was looking at some apartments too and I found THIS (p.s. click CTRL and the THIS's to open a new tab or window to see the websites). God my English is so pants lately and my blogs are lazy!

So it's done and I shall be there on 21st August until 26th!

Wish me luck!

So here, for the best game of tennis I have ever seen...

Congratulations Rafa!

p.s. click on the flag to go to the BBC Wimbledon web page!

Good job I haven't got one of these at my office! Hang on, I just had an idea - if only I could set up my own company I would have no-one to discipline me if I bought one of these...

Don't you agree Row?

Almost everyone has their heart broken at some stage in this life. Who would argue that it's actually an important part of our development? I mean there are obviously several ways in which a heart can be broken: -

• The "dumped for someone else" shocker.

Ones which come completely out of the blue and you didn't expect at all. I have had this one on a couple of occasions and I admit they are the hardest I have had to get over. Even if I wasn't quite as close to them as others, it hurt more because it leaves a distinctly bitter taste and the worrying thought of "What is wrong with me that I am not as good as them?".

• There's the one where they just walked out of your life and said it's over.

Could be completely out of the blue or maybe something has been niggling you for a bit of time? But it's still unexpected non-the-less and can hurt a great deal, especially if you thought it was forever.

• There's a bereavement.

I don't think this one needs much explaining but I suspect this is the most painful of all.

• Mutual parting of the ways.

Maybe this is a generalisation, but don't most "first loves" end like this? They certainly do in Neighbours or Home and Away where one of them goes to university in England or Perth or something. There's always a lot of crying but it was inevitable. Actually something similar happened to me, we both went to uni after being together for three years and just drifted apart. And then *poof* it was gone (no I didn't turn gay, the *poof* is like a genie disappearing or something). Still it's so very very difficult to come to terms with being alone, and there is always the wondering of how your ex is getting on.

• You fall out of love.

No matter how much you want everything to work out, you just know deep inside you can't do it. And day after day you just wish you could break away. It's a thousand little ends in your mind and it's heart breaking in itself. Some people find someone else first just to help with break up, but remember it'll never last!!! (see point 1 )

• You find your "true" love whilst in a relationship.

Or so you think. God, what do you do now? It was so sudden, how did it happen? I have to break my partners heart!! - yes heart breaking in itself I guess. But I am still a little bit bitter on that subject so I guess I wouldn't truly understand it since it's never happened to me. I think? Actually I think it did once but I picked the option of trying to fix what was wrong with my current relationship! So that's why I'm now single and maybe haven't found my one! Or maybe I have - DOH!

Obviously when you have had your heart broken, it can change the mindset of any person, and it almost always makes the person more wise.  That doesn't necessarily mean they wont do the same thing twice, because sometimes things just feel right when in fact they turn out to be wrong.  But anyways, it is for this reason I was considering setting up a "SingleorwishingIweresingle" group.  This would be a group for anyone who is single and may or may not have had their heart broken.  It is also a group for those who are in a relationship but their wives (or partners or husbands) are nagging them so much they wish sometimes that they were single!  It would also be a group for those who are in a happy relationship but just want to point and laugh at those less fortunate than themselves.  In fact maybe it's a pointless group, but still if I didn't have  these wondrous thoughts I would be very very bored inside this mind of mine.  In fact I would have to dump it

Any more ways to have you heart broken? Any stories people would like to tell?  Feel free to comment! Or just ask me to set up the group (or set it up yourself and add me ) and write a post in there!  Either way I think as morbid as the topic may be it would still be enlightening! And maybe even helpful for those who are going through the shit of having their heart broken.

Ta ra for now!

Who knows??

Pringles 'are not potato crisps'

Pringles, the popular snack food in a tube, are not potato crisps, a High Court judge has ruled.

Their packaging, "unnatural shape" and the fact that the potato content is less than 50% helped Mr Justice Warren make his crunch decision.

As a result, Pringles, in all flavours are free from Value Added Tax (VAT).

Manufacturer Procter & Gamble (P&G) is likely to save millions of pounds as a result of the decision

I want my 17.5% back please!!!!!!! That should sort me for life

For the full story click here!